healing hearts

well world, my life has been changing and changing fast.

first and foremost, the shit i said about my ex boyfriend a few posts ago..yea, just forget all that. he is an undeserving asshole. you can only be burned so many times by one person in a 3 month period until you just let it go and that's where i am right now. if i have learned anything at all this year or from that break up it would be to just leave the past in the past. one of my favorite quotes is "when someone shows you who they are believe them the first time"..i think i love it so much because it is so true. my ex showed me a side of him very early in our relationship (about 4 years ago) and i turned the other way, i believed he could and would change for me. 4 years later i am the one who is left with the broken pieces of what used to be..if i only knew then what i know now.....

anywayyyyy, i am still unemployed :( BUT on a good note, i had a job interview about a week ago at a small regional hospital about 30 mins from where i live. the job position is in the cardiac cath lab which scares the living fuck out of me but it's M-F 6:30-3, no weekends, no holidays, and it pays pretty well. with it being a critical care setting then it's hard for me to say no because i am an ICU junkie. maybe 6 months to a year at this job will help me move up to CCU or CTVU. i had the interview and then was called for a second interview and was basically told that i was the favorite out of everyone who interviewed (no to toot my own horn or anything) and that i was competing with one other nurse who had not returned the phone call for the second interview. yesterday i did a background check and today did the drug test and physical so i am pretty sure i am hired. i am going to be so exhausted waking up at 4:30 am 5 days a week, especially since i am not a morning person but it's money and experience and something to do. i am pretty sure my couch has a permanent indention in it from where i have sat for 3 months haha. i need to get back out in the world and do something, so needless to say even though it isn't my first choice of hospitals or jobs i am very excited :)


hopefully i will be a nurse who is working to heal hearts, lord knows mine could use some healing as well. keep me in your thoughts, i'll keep you in mine!

-wren

unemployment

still no news on the job...AHHHH i think i am going crazy.

why do hospitals insist on making people wait so long??? i feel like the job search may never end for me. i had to borrow $2000 from my mom to help pay for rent & utilities since I graduated...who knew being unemployed could be so expensive? luckily my mom is supportive and doesn't want me to take a job that i will hate (LTC-sorry i just can't do it!) or a job that requires a long commute. she has encouraged me to take my free time and have some fun and relax then when the job does come i have to hit the ground running. i agree to some extent, i want to find the RIGHT job but right now ANY job would be nice...or at least interviews/offers would be nice. luckily, my mom is a nurse, too and she understands my problems right now.

anyway..so gavin degraw is coming to my city this week and i'm going to a small show he is having at dave & busters with a few friends. i'm hoping he will pull me on stage, propose, and then i can forget about jobs and money problems and my broken heart. he could serenade me and make my world right again ;)

well that's all folks...

-wren